AAARRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

So, my life is never slow.

Seriously. I am always doing something crazy. Not just me though. My whole family has crazy crap going on.

I hosted a baby shower for my sister in law on Saturday. Wyatt gets sick. Kane gets sick. My Grandpa died.

Here's the thing about my Grandpa though. I just met him over the phone and email in 2007. A lil over a year ago. I was in a search for my dad (yeah I don't know him either) and I found Lewis Bovee, aka Butch. I talked to him on the phone and emails. For some reason, my donor for half of my DNA doesn't contact me. Unfortunately I don't know if that is because Butch didn't give him my information or if it's because Tim wants nothing to do with me.

Its not like he doesn't KNOW he has a daughter.

I have had a phone relationship with my father. It lasted 2 months. One day, he was "gone". Was he really gone? Did he ask Keith (his brother) to lie to me?

Well, the death of my biological grandfather has possibly taken with it any relationship I may have with my dad.

I don't even know WHO the couple who informed all of his "email buddies" of his death. I don't know who Bill and Sharon Bovee are. I don't know if the reasoning for Butch's death is hereditary. Heck I don't even know WHY he died!!!!

I am not feeling really up right now. I feel lost. I feel hurt. I wished I knew him more. I wish I knew any of my dad's family more.