Miscarriage and Cookie

Oooook. Most of you reading this know that i have the IUD. It's great! I have had maybe 3 or 4 very light periods since Wyatt was conceived.

I started my period on Friday, I still have it today! What the hell! I NEVER have my period longer than 4 days. NEVER. Well, yesterday I began bleeding really heavy and last night/this morning I was experiencing awful pain! I also passed some blood clots.

I found out that it wasn't blood clots. It was the beginnings of my baby. I was pregnant.

Since the IUD was in, my body attacked the baby and killed it.

Wow.

I have been craving baby for a while now and all I had to do was take the damn IUD out. I even had an appointment to do it 8 weeks ago.

But NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Kayla is better without getting pregnant. Do you have any idea what I would have to do to even CARRY a baby? All my sane meds (because they don't MAKE me crazy) would have to vamos. How much do you wanna bet that my poor kids would not be too thrilled with that?

Well.

I got pregnant anyways.

Had I known I was pregnant before my IUD began to create a hostile environment I would have immediately taken it out and even quit my meds. *sigh*

Now I have so many happy things going on in my life in the next few weeks. I don't foresee any alone and down time for me to just....I don't know. Just be.

So that was my SAD news. I have HAPPY news now.

We got a boxer today! She is 8 weeks old and her name is Cookie. Thats one of the only things Wyatt can say clear enough. That I would even consider naming a dog I should add.

She is so docile and is very well mannered.

She's not related to me. LOL



I think my sad news still outweighs my happy news. With everything going on in my life right now, I don't need a baby. But it sure would have been nice to be pregnant again... So for now, I have Kane && Wyatt && Cookie.